Ah-ah

Trainee

In many ways, this term defines my existence

But at the same time it is a term that I can never truly explain

A period of time, a state of transition

Where I could neither belong anywhere

Nor do anything

The biggest concerns I had living as a trainee

Were the questions of friends and family

"When are you going to come out?"

"When are you going to debut?"

Questions like these

I couldn’t give them an answer

Because I didn’t know either

Because such answers were unknowable

Though I came here through a certain confidence

And belief in myself

What awaited me was a different kind of reality: